One day you are in, the next day you are out

One day you are in, the next day you are out....

I loved watching Project Runway on TV when it was a hit reality show quite a few years ago and those where the last words that the departing aspiring fashion designer would hear from the chief judge on their last day of the show.  They would pack up their tables and all their tools and leave.... often visibly broken and in tears.  And watching them leave, I so often thought how harsh those words are.  This might have been reality TV but those contestants are real people, all talented designers otherwise they would not have been chosen.  They believed in themselves, designed their hearts out show after show - and honestly some had jaw-dropping creations.  But there were rules and all knew it and at each show, one or even two on some occasions were told to leave.

But that was reality TV..... Yet that happens too in our everyday lives.

One day you are in - in friendships, relationships, marriages, workplaces - and the next day you are out.  Gone.....

And that is how it was for me on the 15 March 2019.  I work up, like normal, went to work, like normal, worked at my desk on jobs, just like normal.  I was in.  Then at 3 pm that day, it all ended.  I was called into a meeting and handed a folder white letter, informed that my role was being made redundant and I could leave early that afternoon with the rest of my employment time off.  I was out.

First redundancy ever, in 38 years of working and first time.  I guess I am lucky to have escaped the redundancy process in all this time as I have certainly witnessed a few in my time.  But one never thinks it is going to happen to you .... do you?

I left with a range of emotions, hurt, disappointment, anger - just a complete whirlpool of emotions.  My first week was spent still processing all these emotions while I dealt with the required meetings and negotiations for settlement.

Now all that is out of the way and 3 weeks have since passed.  I still feel angry at times that my loyalty and hard work over the past year was all for naught, but all that is slowly passing over.

Now it is time for reassessing my life, our lives and looking towards the future ... whatever it may bring.

Priorities!

So following on from my previous post, this is my chosen word for 2019.  Already 27 days into the the new year, I have had to forcefully put this word constantly in front of me - to constantly remind myself what I want from life this year, how I want to live my live this year and how I will successfully end this year.

Priority:  a thing that is regarded as more important than others;  the fact or condition of that being regarded or treated as more important than others.

Let's add in another word:  MY PRIORITIES.

Simple, straightforward.  This is how I intend to live my life in 2019.

Not a good blogger am I .....

Oh dear, I jump onto my blog to kickstart it all again and sadly I posted only 3 posts for the whole of last year (in January monthly only) ...... so sad to think how life got in the way of everything last year.

So I shall memorise this senenance and make it my mantra for 2019.